Cold Rainy Day

Woke up early in this cold morning... and immediately logged to the web as the dawgies cozily snuggled at my feet. Now, the dawn is creeping in and the light slowly kissing the hazy skyline... Good morning all!

Hello World

 It's been years since I last logged in. Good morning world!

With not much to do during this pandemic, hopefully i can increase login time in the coming days.

Anyway just wishing you all a good day. I pray that the Lord keep us strong amidst this health crisis. And keep safe everyone! Let's all hang in there.

I'm Back

Hello world!

Can't believe it's been two years since i last logged on here. By some chance i was trying to visit this site using my mobile phone and for some reason i couldn't access it. Such a techno-ignoramus i am, see.  So i hurriedly opened my account using the pc and here i am once again facing my wall... yep... no other words to describe it... my wall.

So for the next days or weeks or months and so... i will be updating this wall. Maybe not as often as i used to as i wouldn't have constant access to technology when i'm at the farm. But i do want to write again, and maybe live a productive life again... hopefully.

Till next update.

Ciao!

Sad Again

Feeling Gray

irritation is needlessly irksome. it appears at anytime and without much ado. this time again, i woke up with that heavy feeling, like a seemingly double-edged sword hanging above me. 

so finally i snap.

all those years of holding it in and keeping it together. i can't do it anymore.

so just please indulge me.

else, i will be the one to break.  

Thief in the House

it was on a day like this.

my mom couldn't sleep and was up all night waiting for my bro.

last night... i too felt it.

i couldn't sleep and so had to get out of the room every 30 minutes to check if my brother has come home. i was finally able to nod off around two o'clock. then he returned. both me and mom woke up to the dogs barking. i checked the time. it was past 4 o'clock in the morning. i met him and asked for my phone back. he said not to worry, he'd give it back. i insisted to have it right away. he said later.

it's gone. he took my phone and pawned it.

like all the other stuff we have in the house, he took it and pawned it. gone are all of mom's jewelry (those that are valuable and can be pawned anyway) and even our electronic gadgets (several phones, laptop, camera).

and so it'll start again. us asking where it was pawned and how much needed to buy it back. once we get it back, he gets it again and pawns it again and the process repeats until we can not get it back anymore. a useless, endless cycle of saving - a thing and a soul.

now it's tiring.

Devastated