LakbaySining - A. M. Datinguinoo #1

fresh in college, i was one of those who enter university thirsty for new ideas, new insights, new points of view. as i was easily attracted by poetry and stuff, i got caught by this one which i saw in an old book of poems by revolutionaries which mirrored all their hopes and dreams and the pinings of their soul. the romantic in me couldn 't help but put to heart the lines in this poem by Amor D. i memorized it and would recite it out loud while studying. i loved it so much, that when i was already working my housemates in Lopez would laugh when they hear me recite it again. To the author, i tip my hat off to you... you've touched my soul.


Pigilan Mo Akong Mangarap, Mahal
ni Amor M. Datinguinoo


Pigilan mo akong mangarap,mahal

Sapagkat ang pag-ibig natin

ay di tulad ng sine ni Sharon Cuneta.

Gupitin mo ang pakpak

Ng aking balintataw,

Sapagkat ang pag-ibig natin

ay walang siguradong

"And they lived happily ever after" sa ending.

Ikadena mo ang paglilimayon
Ng aking guniguni,

Sapagkat ang pag-ibig natin

ay hindi nabiyayaan ng katiyakan

Ng paglubog at pagsikat ng araw.


Sa halip,

Turuan mo akong ituring

Na dream come true

Ang bawat araw na kapiling kita.

Sabihin mo sa aking
Langit na sa lupa
Ang nasa tabi kita ngayon,
ang nahahawakan ko ang kamay mo,

ang nakakasabay kita sa pagkain,
ang nakakasandig ako sa iyong mga balikat ang nakakaagapay kita sa pag-aaral ng lipunan at buhay
ang naririnig ko ang boses mo ,
ang nakakaambos ako sa iyong mga iniisip ,
ang napagmamasdan ko ang pagbuka at pagsara ng iyong mga labing
humahabi ng mga pangarap na
kapwa wala tayong karapatang angkinin
(ngunit walang pakundangan mo pa ring pinapangahasan!)

sapagkat Sinta,

Tayong dalawa

ay may kahati sa ating love affair:

Ang kapwa mababangis na Rebolusyon
Sa loob at labas
Ng ikaw at ako.

Kaya't pigilan mo akong mangarap, Mahal.
Sapagkat hindi natin tiyak
Kung bukas,
Tutubuan pa ng bigote ang buwan.


(... once again the words have been dug up thru the net and comes from the Philippine Collegian 1988 Literary Folio.)

Cramming For Some Sense

week's almost over. training still to be continued by tomorrow. have been scheduling training workshops for supervisors here at the plant. we're preparing them for HACCP food safety program here. being the implementors in the line, we are getting them prepped up for the long haul ahead.

enrolled yesterday. and trying to beat deadline for reservation to bora in time for undas.

where's the sense in all these things i do?

Building Bridges

i've often wondered about so many what could have been's in my life. i don't wanna wonder no more.

as i have mentioned before, a lot of friends have left here at work. from then until my sojourn home last month, i have entertained thoughts of a new life elsewhere, too. i can see that my life's plateau-ing here already. and i realize i really want to face new challenges and be open to something different in my life.

at last i'm acknowledging that it's time to take that step forward and make some fundamental changes in my life now. hopefully the change will do me good.

it's time to meet new people, see new worlds and continue to build bridges of friendship around. =)

Back at Work

just got back from iligan. it's fiesta time once again. all us siblings went home. and all of mommy's siblings were home, too. with two of them leaving again for work this week. one is going back to qatar and the other to dubai. i'm kinda imagining myself being that far away from home and rarely having the time to come home. it's quite daunting. if only i do not have to be that far just to earn a living and buy my dream house.

we rarely have this kind of gatherings now. i almost never come home. last time i came back was during last year's fiesta, too. had swimming at timoga and took pics of our old school. it's painted a pink color now. this year, we all of us in the family were there. ang saya! langga enjoyed it so much also, especially the parade. we also dropped by st. michael's cathedral to pay homage to our patron saint, Saint Michael the Archangel. look at our pics here:

we also swam again at timoga. mommy always has a clan reunion during fiesta.

here we are trying to sweat it out at a local bowling lane just near our house. hehe... super saya! bowling is one of the favorite bonding activity in our family. i remember when i was younger, my parents often take part in their company bowling competition. and boy, my parents have quite a knack at knocking them pins down. kuya and esmuky also have the strong arms for this feat. and so can langga. see her pushing the ball down the lane. hehe..

Pia in the House

My housemate back in college came home for a month. I've always referred to her as my genius friend. Anyone who've had the chance to know this gal knows that she's got brains all right. Alam niyo yong tipong, hirap na hirap ka na sa kaka-imagine ano nga ba itsura ng molecules or whatever chemical structure there is? Siya hindi... nungka! Kayang-kaya niya i-picture in her mind. Grabe! At magaling pa magturo. (Hehe... may bayad na 'to ha.)

Pia just finished her stint (is this the right word?) with GE. She has transferred to Beckton-Dickinson. She says she's through with the cornfields environment. Now it's time to move to the city. Pang'sex in the city' daw beauty niya. Haha. She has been accepted in the New Jersey office and will be working on injectibles she says- or wait a minute, was it injections? Ok, there, i actually forgot.

Just suddenly received a text from her while i was at a meeting with the bosses. Her number did not immediately register with me, so i had to ask who the sender was. Upon learning it was her, we immediately set a meet-up.

Had dinner with her new someone. He's Adam and she is his Eve. Friend ola stayed with me at the staffhouse and went with pia for the rest of her stay in the south. Also met with jayne and CS friends ansel, pearl and alvin. We all ate to our fill (in fact, maybe more than our fill). Grabe, gluttony na ata 'yon. Thanks for the pasalubong din pala! Ang bango!

Hope to see you again in the not so distant future. Well here are some of the pics i got from them friends. =)

Another To Think About

well, it's been quite a while and there's been a lot on my mind these last few days. i hope i can sort things out in the coming weeks, hopefully not years. ",)


friend jayne forwarded to me an email about mid-career crisis. i didn't know there was one. i do remember talks on mid-life crisis with chemsoc friends and housemates pia, jayne and glo way back in college. now it's mid-career crisis talk.


whoa!


oh yes, and maybe it is... being in our early thirties and left with still another 10 years or so on the career wagon - huh, maybe there really is a mid-career struggle. well, i'm posting it here to share with friends as well.




The Mid-Career Crisis: Don't Fight It, Feel It
James Houston
Friday, August 24, 2007

If you've come to absolutely dread Monday morning, you may be having a mid-career crisis. Like the mid-life crisis, the mid-career crisis comes from being unfulfilled and unhappy in your situation, and it's more common than you'd think. For some people, excessive work and poor pay are the root causes, while for others the problems are lack of motivation and challenge. Whatever the cause, the key to surviving the mid-career crisis is embracing it and taking it as a sign that you need to make some fundamental changes. When you see it this way, your career dilemma can actually become a force of change for the good.

How Did I Get Here?
When we chose a career, we often do so from an uninformed position of inexperience. Sometimes parental or societal pressures factor into our decisions more than they should. People change, and over time things that previously seemed important become less so. And in a society where we are repeatedly told that the things that matter the most are money, power and status, the idea of finding fulfilling work often gets lost. So it should come as no surprise that after years in their chosen field, many people realize that their jobs are making them miserable.

What Not to Do
It is easy to make excuses for avoiding change. People think that it will be too disruptive, might lower their standard of living or simply be worse than the current situation. That kind of thinking will keep you stuck where you are, and ignoring the problem won't make it disappear.

You've also got to guard against being preoccupied with your age. Some people get hit with the mid-career crisis in their 30s, while others avoid it until well into their 50s. There is no "too young" or "too old" when it comes to career dilemmas.

Nail It Down
Getting through a mid-career crisis successfully hinges on identifying exactly what the problem is, and what it isn't. You need to determine what is making you unhappy with work, and then imagine what it would be like to work somewhere where these problems weren't present. Once you've done that, determine what it is that makes you happy, both in life and work. It could be exercising your creative side, improving your physical fitness, the outdoors, spending time with family or simply having more time to stop and smell the roses.

Ideally then, what you are looking for is a situation that will give you less (or none) of the things that make you unhappy at your current job, while letting you do more of things you like, both at work and at home. Many people going through this exercise discover things about themselves that they may not have realized. Often we become overly focused on one thing, when we are in fact more multi-dimensional, something that needs to be explored and expressed in our careers.

Options
While a complete career change is often the solution to a career crisis, be open to the possibility that the problem may not be so much what you do but where you do it. Here are some solutions to common complaints that may help you remain in your current field:

Underappreciated - If your employer doesn't recognize what you bring to the table, consider becoming a freelance contractor or consultant.

More time with family - Consider working from home, telecommuting one or two days a week, or make the case for "flex time." Employers often see the benefit in these arrangements if you can demonstrate that it makes you more productive.

Negative work environment - Look around for another organization where you can perform your role in an environment better suited to your work habits and style. You may want to consider addressing the situation directly with your supervisor or HR department, but be discreet and try not to sound completely dissatisfied. They may be able to offer options to help you grow in your current role, and many organizations have programs that allow you to move laterally or expand your current responsibilities so that you can feel challenged again.

Know When It's Time to Go
Leaving your job is never an easy decision to make, but if you've tried everything and still find yourself constantly bogged down in a negative space over your job, you need to move on. Even though you may be very good at what you do, it doesn't necessary mean that you will be happy doing it. So if you find yourself in a mid-career crisis, see it as an opportunity to make a change in your life that is more in line with who you really are. Take a good look at what it is you need from work, and go out and find that. When you find a job that is fulfilling and satisfying, your quality of life will improve dramatically. You still may not like Monday mornings, but at least you'll be free of the constant feeling that you are in the wrong job!

This Wonderful Life

to me it's not just beautiful,

life is wonderful, wonderful too!