fast forward now to 2012, just last weekend, trish invited me to sit-in on another truly rich session by tito bo. i arrived late, thanks to my hopeless ineptitude in understanding directions. tito bo was still funny, and gwapo in his suit, and serious, and awfully right! he mentioned about doing the same thing i did- writing down what he wanted and setting out to do it. only difference is, his list was very detailed. and right he was! (once again). it's indeed easier to get something if you have it laid down exactly as you want it. it's hard to miss something so specific. he wrote down 15 pages of his goals and said it always brings tears to his eyes every time he realizes one of his dreams have come true. wow, that's truly amazing!
i am so embarassed to admit that mine was all helter-skelter and roughly drafted out. no wonder i still don't know if i have achieved it already. with such ambiguous goals laid down, the only outcome could only be a general "uhhm, yeah, this is it, maybe..." .
but tito bo mentioned something i did not do. he said he read his list everyday... every single day. mine was folded and refolded several times over, tucked into one of my numerous planners, and pushed back onto some obscure boxes hidden away under the bed never again to see the light of day. until a few weeks ago. indeed, life has some surprising way of turning out. my cousin and her whole family was coming to stay with us for a couple of weeks for their interview at the US embassy. trish and i spent the whole night tidying up the place, at which point i was reunited with my planner of long ago. and there, lo and behold, i saw it again. hidden in several folds --- my life's dreams! i quietly read it again. sighed. then tucked it into my new planner and then placed it inside my bag.
so last night, i attempted to read my list once more. while i was in dubai and after coming back home, i thought my goals have changed. but one realization i had was that, what i'd written years ago are still true to this day. goals change depending on one's circumstances (esp. short-term goals... strategic ones). but dreams remain the same. looking deep inside, my list still reflects my heart's desires. even having gone through so much changes in my life, indeed, i still have my dreams waiting to be made.